868) و يبقى الألم ..

كم من طريق سَلَكت؟! ..
كم من مشاعر أهدَرت؟! ..
كم من دموع أذرَفت؟! ..
 و يبقى الألم.

863) خناقة كافية !

مرة فى يوم مش فاكر إيه

عزمت عقلى و قلبى ع الكافية

و بعد ما عرفتهم على بعض ..

سابونى أنا و مسكوا فى بعض

عقلى يقوله تحب ليه 

و قلبى قاعد يضحك عليه

بيقوله أمال عايش ليه ..

و حياتك دى بتعمل بيها إيه

عقلى إتزرزر و عمل منظر

و كان هايلم الخلق عليه

قاله حياتى هى نجاحى ..

فى شغلى و إسمى و مالى يا بيه

قلبى زغرله و قاملوه و قالوه

إنت بجد مصدق نفسك

هى أشغالك على نجاحاتك ..

فى لحظة حب بتساوى إيه

عقلى بكى و جالى إشتكى

إن قلبى بيقسى عليه

و أنا من طيبتى أو من خيبتى ..

مش عارف أعمل فيهم إيه

عقلى بيكبر و قلبى بيضغر

و عاملين خناقة مع بعض

و أنا بتفرج و ساعات أهرج ..

و لا طايل و لا سما و لا أرض

M.O.H.@.L.Y

يونيو 2014

856) 7 years of Blogging :::: Where Am I today?!

Today marks the 7th birthday -my lucky number- of my blog ... yeah it has been 6 month since my last post, and that is the longest period ever I stopped publishing on my blog, but in 7 years, that is not that much time.

It was a weird feeling not to be able to express myself through writings as I used to over all these years. It was something like a mental / psychological block that kept me not able of putting any thought on paper during that period.

This is coinciding with getting into the late 30s and soonly moving to 40s, where I am stopping before a huge and massive milestone & checking not only if I am still on the right track, but if it is the right track in the first place.

I traveled to many places in 3 different continents during these 6 months, thought a lot about it, and realized that some dreams deserve to die for while other dreams are to be kept in that wonderful golden fluffy cage somewhere in your mind.

On the public front, lots of disappointments and frustrations over the last 3 years, and I still have hope that by staying in Egypt and helping in changing of the mindset of the younger generations, we can change the culture in the future ... I am still working on it, but awaaaaay from politics.
On the mental / career front, things are not going as good as it was before the revolution(s) in business, but I am still challenging myself to focus on quality not pursue money to compensate for the lost business. Yet, I had to let go of some expensive dreams and replace them with more practical ones.
On the emotional front I am still fighting and struggling to find "the best friend for the rest of my life" to be my life partner rather than settling for the increasing urge of companionship and increasing pressures from family and society. I am also getting back to physically meet my close friends in person after falling into the virtual trap for a long time and losing the taste real friendships.
On the spiritual front, although my practices are not getting any better - except on the moral part-, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, I can feel the greatness of God in everything, and I am so grateful more than ever. I am sure I will reach that level of purity I wanna reach someday ISA. I am still still struggling with the dual-faced society that focuses on the practices and looks rather than the faith and actions.
On the phyiscal front, my health is fine, and I am almost sustaining a regular workout practice to keep myself of gaining weight, get more fit, and lead a healthy life-style (I gotta be trained from now, not when I am old).

So more or less, I realized that life is a continuous non-ending struggle with myself and others, and as much as the hardships of these struggles, as much as it is the essence of its beauty till reaching my destination ... The secret is feeling grateful for what I have, ambitious about what I wanna have, and not regretful for what I haven't had.

Happy Birthday my Blog :)

M.O.H.@.L.Y

853) Life = Time !

With such picture, I don't think I need to write much ...
These men-of-ice are representing us in life ... Everyday passing melts part of us, till at a point in time, we are unable to hold ourselves and collapse. If we sit still doing nothing, it is just a matter of time and no matter how nice we look, we will just melt.
Life is simply the accumulation of TIME, so we would rather pay attention to what we are doing with it before we melt and vaporize.

M.O.H.@.L.Y

852) I just wanna Leave !

I just wanna leave ...

Leave What? I don't know ..

To where? I don't know ..

By when? I don't know ..

And How? I don't know ..

I just wanna leave ..

Life or Place .. I don't know

Sooner or Later .. I don't know

Near or Far .. I don't know

Easy or Hard .. I don't know

I just wanna leave ...

M.O.H.@.L.Y

851) Life and its Ends !!

and then his life comes to an end ...
but is it an end or just another beginning?  ...
is life just one life, or different phases each one takes you to the other? ...
is it about when, or about how it will end?!
was he living in the first place? if so, how can he make sure that he is? ...
and then his life comes to an end ...

M.O.H.@.L.Y

850) FREEDOM ... A Gift and A Choice !

I have always thought highly of freedom, and I have always had it on the top of my personal values. 

Seriously, I do realize now that Freedom is the most precious gift God has given us, and we have to use it wisely in order to keep & preserve. Excessive use of freedom can make us risk loosing it, while not using it turns us into half-humans imprisoned within our own soles.

I have just witnessed -and still witnessing- such terrible experience of loosing freedom for someone very close to me, and the thought of loosing it is really scaring me to death. I can't even think clearly to write about it properly. I am sorry.

M.O.H.@.L.Y

848) Do you Dare to Dream?!

This week I wanna share with you a video that can help you in understanding why many people -including you perhaps- are reacting the way they do, and sticking to their comfort zone.


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Now after watching it, you should be doing the following:
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1. Establish how your time is spent:
Look back through your diary or log-sheet to work out how you spend your time. If you have not done so, log your activities for a period of a month to see where your time is going. 

2. Determine your problem areas:
What is making you use your life inefficiently? Externally, and Internally.

3. Be clear on your objectives and priorities:
Agree your precise role, objectives and targets in your work and life so that everyone knows what is expected of you, and put this in writing.

4. Tackle the enemy within you:
By Planning your strategies, Prioritizing your actions, Delegating stuff that aren't that important anymore, Reviewing and evaluating yourself, and always allocating enough time to explore and play.

So do you dare to go to the Magic Zone?

M.O.H.@.L.Y

845) Got Money ... Got Life?!

Run after Money .... spend your whole youth piling it up ... over work, sacrifice time, relations, and anything to have more of it ..... why??! ... To enjoy your life when you are older and cant work ..... GIVE ME A BREAK.

Money is like drugs, it just gives an instant feeling of euphoria and owning the world, but no matter how much you have or get, you will always need more and your whole life will revolve around it. Do you think that keeping on possessing things will make you happy? Do you really think that if you own a yacht, a plane, 10 cars, ...etc will make you happy? ... I guess not, it will make you more worried about maintaining them and getting better ones. I'd rather earn enough money that makes me able to spend a week in a luxurious place twice a year than owning and worrying about it for the rest of the year.

This doesn't mean I hate making money, of course NOT. What I hate is making it a goal not a result. I work to make a difference, feel satisfied, and when I do that right, I should get money; sometimes a lot (Corporate), sometimes few (Academic), and sometimes none (Social Responsibility Work). But it only appears in my short term goals to maintain functioning properly, while life-time goals have no trace of it.

What really makes me happy is seeing a positive difference happening with people whether I took part in it or not. What makes me happy is seeing a talent recognized, an effort appreciated, and a passion respected. What makes me happy is freedom, justice, simplicity, and above all LOVE. This is a long lasting happiness money can't afford it.

Why do you lead a PENDING life running after a mirage while you can actually live it to the max with you already have? 

M.O.H.@.L.Y

843) كن بسيطا ... ترى الوجود بسيطا !

قديما قال إيليا أبو ماضى : "كن جميلا ترى الوجود جميلا" .. و الاّن إسمحوا لى أن أضيف : "كن بسيطا ترى الوجود بسيطا". الإنسان دائما يضع لنفسه صعوبات وعواقب ولا يلتفت إلى ما هو بسيط في حياته. فحياة الإنسان تكون بسيطة بالتفكير البسيط فيها وتكون صعبة  عندما يستصعب الإنسان الحياة.

القصة الاّتيه تعبر عن هذا المعنى بوضوح

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أحد السجناء في عصر لويس الرابع عشر محكوم عليه بالإعدام ومسجون في جناح قلعة. هذا السجين لم يبق على موعد إعدامه سوى ليله واحده. ويروى عن لويس الرابع عشر ابتكاره لحيل وتصرفات غريبة.

وفي تلك الليلة فوجئ السجين بباب الزنزانة يفتح ولويس يدخل عليه مع حرسه ليقول له :أعطيك فرصة إن نجحت في استغلالها فبإمكانك إن تنجو ، هناك مخرج موجود في جناحك بدون حراسة إن تمكنت من العثور عليه يمكنك الخروج وان لم تتمكن فان الحراس سيأتون غدا مع شروق الشمس لأخذك لحكم الإعدام.

غادر الحراس الزنزانة مع الإمبراطوربعد أن فكوا سلاسله. وبدأت المحاولات وبدأ يفتش في الجناح الذي سجن فيه والذي يحتوي على عده غرف وزوايا ولاح له الأمل عندما اكتشف غطاء فتحة مغطاة بسجادة بالية على الأرض وما إن فتحها حتى وجدها تؤدّي إلى سلّم، نزل إلى سرداب سفلي ويليه سلم أخر يصعد مرة أخرى وظل يصعد إلى أن بدأ يحس بتسلل نسيم الهواء الخارجي مما بث في نفسه الأمل إلى أن وجد نفسه في النهاية في برج القلعة الشاهق والأرض لايكاد يراها

عاد أدراجه حزينا منهكا ولكنه واثق أن الامبراطور لايخدعه. وبينما هو ملقى على الأرض مهموم ومنهك ضرب بقدمه الحائط وإذابه يحس بالحجر الذي يضع عليه قدمه يتزحزح فقفز وبدأ يختبر الحجر فوجد بالإمكان تحريكه وما إن أزاحه وإذا به يجد سردابا ضيّقا لايكاد يتسع للزحف ، فبدأ يزحف الى ان بدأ يسمع صوت خرير مياه وأحس بالأمل لعلمه إن القلعة تطل على نهر لكنه في النهاية وجد نافذة مغلقة بالحديد أمكنه أن يرى النهر من خلالها

عاد يختبر كل حجر وبقعة في السجن ربما كان فيه مفتاح حجر آخر لكن كل محاولاته ضاعت سدى ، والليل يمضي واستمر يحاول ويفتش ، وفي كل مرة يكتشف أملا جديدا فمرة ينتهي إلى نافذة حديدية ومرة إلى سرداب طويل ذو تعرجات لا نهاية لها ليجد السرداب أعاده لنفس الزنزانة. وهكذا ظل طوال الليل يلهث في محاولات وبوادر أمل تلوح له مرة من هنا و مرة من هناك وكلها توحي له بالأمل في أول الأمر لكنها في النهاية تبوء بالفشل

وأخيرا انقضت ليلة السجين كلها ولاحت له الشمس من خلال النافذة ووجد وجه الإمبراطور يطل عليه من الباب

ويقول له : أراك لازلت هنا !!

قال السجين : كنت أتوقع انك صادق معي أيها الإمبراطور

قال له الإمبراطور : لقد كنت صادقا

سأله السجين : لم اترك بقعة في الجناح لم أحاول فيها ، فأين المخرج الذي قلت لي!!

قال له الإمبراطور : لقدكان باب الزنزانة مفتوحا وغير مغلق!!

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إعرف أولوياتك و بسط الحياة فهى كما قال الشعراوى: " أهم من أن تنسى و لكنها أتفه من أن تكون غابة."

M.O.H.@.L.Y

842) .............................. !!!

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M.O.H.@.L.Y

840) مع البلطجية !!

فى يوم عيد الحب السنة ديه

كنت رايح فرح أعز أصدقاء ليّه

فرحان و بأغنى مع ثومة الأغنية

و الإشارة واقفة و الزحمة لا نهائية

طلعوا عليا فجأة البلطجية

فى عز الزحمة و ناويين أذية

واحد شمالى و عامل نفسه ضحية

و واحد قدامى قافل طريقى بسوء نية

مد إيده مابين الباب و الإزاز

و خطف موبايلى و شد الكوفية

قعد يشتم و يزعق عشان أنزل

و يخطف هو بسلامته العربية

سبحان من ثبتنى فى الليلة ديه

و كأن الكلام ده بيحصل لحد تانى مش ليّه

رجعت لورا .. و بسرعة تانى لقدام

و طوحت اللى قدامى بعصبية

جريت و معرفوش يلحقونى

و رجعت بيتنا أخد نَفَسى شوية

و حلفت إنى مش هأخاف من اللى حصل

و إن الليلة دى لسة مش منتهيه

وقفت الخط و غيرت الباسوردز

و فوّقت نفسى بسرعة  بشوية ميّة

نزلت الفرح و عديت على نفس الشارع

عشان أنسى اللى حصل فيّه

من الأخر خالى باكم و ماتقفوش أبدا

حتى لو دوستم حد بالعربية

دى ناس ضايعة و عن روحها مستغنيه

مايفرقش معاها إنت إبن ناس ..  و لا إبن جنّية

و على فكرة القصة دى حقيقية

فى الخليفة المأمون قُرب الإتحادية

الساعة تمانية و نص و شوية

 فى عيد الحب .. مع البلطجية

M.O.H.@.L.Y

20.02.2013

839) فـــــاكِر؟ !

أول مرة مش زى أى مرة 

مهما كانت حلوة ... مهما كانت مرة

فاكر أول مرة نجحت؟

فاكر أول مرة سافرت؟

فاكر أول مرة عرفت ..

إن الناس من جوة غير من برة؟

فاكر أول يوم مدرسة؟

فاكر الدنيا و هى كويسه؟

فاكر صاحبك اللى حبك ..

و كان دايما حواليك و جنبك؟

فاكر ضحكة أول بنت عرفتها؟

أول وردة؟ أول رعشة لما لمستها؟

فاكر لما عملت بطاقة ..

و إفتكرت إنك خلاص بقيت حاجة؟

فاكر لما إتخرجت من الجامعة؟

 فاكر الفرحة؟ فاكر الدَمعَة؟

فاكر أول مرتب خدته ..

و إزاى فرحت و إنت بتعِده؟

فاكر لما إفتكرت إنك حبيت بجد

  و إنكسر قلبك و إتوجعت؟

فاكر لما من ربنا قربت ..

و تُبت و وقعت، و وقعت و تُبت؟

فاكر لما بقى ليك فى المجتمع مركز

 بس فضلت وحدتك هى اللى فى المركز؟

فاكر لما قررت إن الحياة لازم تتعاش ..

و طلّعت نفسك من غرفة الإنعاش؟

عارف إنت لسه فاكر ده كله ليه؟

و لا إنت مش فاكر إنت عايش ليه؟

M.O.H.@.L.Y

13 / 2 / 13

837) Cairo Part-Timer !!

I am not gonna talk today about politics, love, relationships, life, or anything. This is one of the personal posts that I bother you with every now and then J

I finally took the decision that I have long waited for ; I am moving out of Cairo by the end of 2015 in-shaa-Allah. Before you say, that is still far away, I would like to tell you that it cant be sudden, and it has to be gradual in order to pull out slowly of the corporate business and establish another in the new destination, and handle how I will continue teaching at AUC as well, and do the Social work at Nahdet El Mahrousa. My Mission is the same, but I may need to change some strategies.

This will take at least 2 years to handle, but just taking the decision itself is a big relief. 

Although I loved Cairo a lot -when I was younger- that I have established a club in its name at AUC and other Egyptian and Foreign universities, but I really cant bare living there or being a full-timer in Cairo anymore. Cairo became a blood, mind, and soul sucking city with all its traffic, air, pollution, aggressiveness  and lost feeling of security. This is not only because of the aftermath of the revolution, I was actually thinking about it since 2006, but the revolution aftermath just came to push me to take the decision without regrets.

So what about Marriage? Ah, I won’t wait to get married and take the decision, that stage is over. I am where I am, and will be where I will be, and the woman who is gonna think about marrying me will know that from the beginning and it is her full choice to join me in such life or “enjoy” Cairo. In addition, I am more closer than ever now regarding not looking for an Egyptian wife with all my respect to Egyptian women.

The challenge is that I still have lots of ideas in development and corporate, that I cant still figure out how to handle while not always being in Cairo. I am sure that I will be able to handle it, specially that I wont completely move out, I will be a part timer being in Cairo 2 or 3 days every week or something of the sort.. The things I know for sure is that I don’t want Cairo to be my home anymore as I already don’t feel belonging there anymore.

Will I succeed in such new life challenge … I don’t know, but I know that I will do my best to take the challenge till the end J

M.O.H.@.L.Y

836) My Year of Extremes .. !

So, it is my birthday again (tomorrow the 27th) ... A whole year has passed with all its beautiful, hot, ugly, and sad moments. It deserves to be called the Year of Extremes ..

The year of hope, the year of despair ..
The year of love, the year of hate ..
The year of bonding, the year of break-up ..
The year of honor, the year of disgrace ..
The year of success, the year of failure ..
The year of courage, the year of fear ..
The year that changed me deep from within ..

That last year wasn't a year, it was many years combined ...
Another year is starting and challenging me with new goals, ideas, and resolutions..The good thing that I am starting my new year with feeling more like a mature man; confident, loving himself and others, and deeply believe that he still can make a difference.

So I am wishing myself a Happy Birthday :)

M.O.H.@.L.Y

835) Are You Beautiful?!

People struggle to make themselves look beautiful, while most of the time they just get themselves more and more ugly ... yes saddening but true ... Just a quick look to the amount of money spent yearly on plastic surgeries  diet physicians, cosmetics, fashionable clothes and accessories ..etc. tells you how big this issue really is. The interesting thing most of the most beautiful people (women or men) I have seen (and believe me I have seen a lot) are the ones glowing from within, the ones who charm you and make you follow them with their genuine smile, and uplifting spirit.

Yes, looks counts; we want the best of the best of the best ... but looks no matter how do you spend on perfecting it, just lasts for the the first impression. It is great for pictures, modeling, ..etc, but when it comes to true human communication and bonding, there are much more beyond the looks ...

God is beautiful and created man kind to crown His creation. He put part of His beauty in each one of us; some are beautiful because they are good looking, some are beautiful because they do really care, some are beautiful because they are genuine, some are beautiful because they are impressive, and some are beautiful because they make others beautiful.... Beauty comes from within as much as from outside or even more..

Can you consider that Marilyn Monroe more beautiful than Mother Teresa?.... 

Is Angelina beautiful because of how she looks or what she does with all the unfortunates in the world? 

Who is more beautiful, your father or George Clooney?  

The answer for all questions is all are beautiful each on his/her way..

So now, you need to really stop and think for a moment ... Where does your beauty lie? Is it in your looks, your way of talking, you voice, your heart, your mind, your manners....etc... Find it and make good use of it, and be sure that each of one us has his/her own beauty, and when he/she see it and believe in it, it will be reflected on the rest.

To all the people afraid from getting older ... YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL as you are, and will be more beautiful when you enjoy your age to the maximum and make the best use of it.

To all the ladies struggling with losing weight .... YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL as you are, and will be more beautiful when you achieve your target, not because you will be thinner, but because you will be in control.

To all the girls who think they are ugly ... YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL as you are, and will be more beautiful when you go fetch your source of beauty coz no one will see it unless you do first.

To all the men who think they are not good enough for any women ..... YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL as you are, and will be more beautiful if you got the self-confidence and genuine caring that women can smell miles away.

To all the geeks who think they are aliens .... YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL as you are, and will be more beautiful when you reflect your brilliant mind on others, and use it to Connecting and Impressing them.

To anyone who thinks that he or she is not beautiful .... YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL as you are, and will be more beautiful when you believe that you really are..

To everyone who think he or she is BEAUTIFUL ... Help others to see their beauty in order to be more beautiful ..

I am beautiful ... Are you?

M.O.H.@.L.Y

833) إنسان ؟!!

ما زال قلبى دافئا 

و مازالت روحى حرة

فما بال جسدى هامدا 

و ما بال نفسى مُرة

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يضحكنى طفل و تثيرنى إمرأة

و يقشعر بدنى للاَذان

و عندما أخلو لنفسى

أشعر بأنى بارداَ كالأوثان

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أمازلت بشراَ أنا

أم أصبحت حجرا صوان؟

أبالحب أحيا و بالرغبة أنتشى

أم أنا صنماَ فى جسد إنسان؟

  

Mohaly
رأس السنة 2012-2013

822) If Only !!

Do you realize that if your aim is happiness, you will never be happy !! Yes how ironic, but happiness is an abnormal and temporary status where if reached can't be always maintained... What we should aim for is satisfaction as this can be manageable and permanent, and when happiness comes we enjoy it, and try to prolong it but we shouldn't take it for granted.

"If only" turned out to be the mother of all sadness because we willingly make our happiness pending on something that if happened, there is a 99% chance that we won't be happy... there will be something else that we will be looking for and saying "If only I have this".

Know what you have, and enjoy it, and know what you don't and work for it. The real happiness comes from making use of your blessings and working hard to achieve your goals; other wise, welcome to the infinite loop of "If Only!".

Mohaly

817) The Revamping Generation !

I have always hated following other steps without re-thinking about why did they do it, how, and what are the other options. Although I tend to be a very organized person but I do question all traditions, systems, and norms. May be that is why till now I still can not feel fitting in our society although I have been living in Egypt for most of my life.

I feel that sometimes we do exaggerate about our traditions and put some taboos and concerns without even questioning it. You may say that is different in the new generation, I'd say yes to an extent. However,   the majority are still adoring the "group-think" style where everyone if following what is there without not even questioning is it the best thing to do or not.

That is clear on the social, cultural, and even on the economic and political levels..

On the socio-cultural level people tend to consider the traditions are sacred even if it become a show-stopper or create a bottle-neck. Check marriage and the copy and paste procedures and problems, education and its copy cats graduates, entertainment, tv programs...etc.

On the Economic level, we have this tendency of copying the success without assessing why did they succeed and is the surrounding environment and our capabilities are suitable to repeat theirs or not (you can find a whole street selling the same commodities just because one or two shops were successful at a certain point in time). Also, the tendency to save in banks and not do any investments or take risks, the tendency to buy very low quality product many times instead of buying a better durable one that have the same life span, the tendency to spend money without any balance or relativeness with income to show off (like Mobiles), or own mood (Cigs or Drugs)..etc.

Even now on the political level, people just go with the flow ... Of course people have the free right to choose and select, but do they really do? Does everyone for example selecting Abou Ismail, is really doing so because he or she are convinced of Abo Ismail and his values, vision, and strategies? I have checked all the referendums in Egypt in the last 100 years, and we never said NO, not even once.. and the highest percentage a No got was like these days last year (22.8%). The rulers of Egypt know this and always play on that line of thought.

What I wanna say is that Jan 25th Revolution has been losing on many fronts, but if we take a deeper look we can see that there is an important factor that everyone has been ignoring ... THE REVAMPING of all our norms and traditions ... The younger generations (below 40) and specially university students are coming up with different values that are much more powerful than their parents and elders... SCAF, Ekhwan, may seem winning now, but who will conquer the future.. who is leading the change .. Who will be there to witness in the first place... It is these young generations. My bet is on them, and I will be putting my effort and time in supporting my, and the younger generation to be able to lead and change this country on the medium and long terms. That is the only hope I have now after all what happened to us over the past 14 months..

Can't say I am still Optimistic as I was a year ago, but I still have a lonely hope, and I cant afford to lose  it as well.

Mohaly

811) Women of Glass !

I once read in an old book of philosophy that women are like a chip of transparent glass that you can see through if you were keen on wiping it off carefully. This piece of glass if was really clean you will see your reflection within as if it is hidden there inside.  If you broke it someday it would be hard to get it back in place, and even if u managed to, there will always be clear scars that will hurt you every time you pass your hand on.

Women indeed have their touch and fingerprint on men's lives.  Sometimes a painful one but mostly the complete opposite. Everyday that passes I realize how much I do need a caring woman in my life.. I cant deny that no matter how much work I do or success I achieve in life, there is always that hollow feeling that hunts me specially when I am back home whether alone or with family. I do realize that a man is never in balance without a caring woman in his life. 

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Mohaly