-------- "This is the time for action not only words, use your God given gifts to develop this country, dont be afraid to speak up, and feel PROUD THAT U R EGYPTIAN." -------- Mohaly, Feb 2011

Saturday, January 5, 2013

833) إنسان ؟!!


ما زال قلبى دافئا 

و مازالت روحى حرة

فما بال جسدى هامدا 

و ما بال نفسى مُرة

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يضحكنى طفل و تثيرنى إمرأة

و يقشعر بدنى للاَذان

و عندما أخلو لنفسى

أشعر بأنى بارداَ كالأوثان

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أمازلت بشراَ أنا

أم أصبحت حجرا صوان؟

أبالحب أحيا و بالرغبة أنتشى

أم أنا صنماَ فى جسد إنسان؟
  
Mohaly
رأس السنة 2012-2013

24 comments:

Anonymous said...

انت انسان عايش عمرك كله بتدور على الحب الحقيقى و مش لاقيه ....مع انه حواليك و انت لسه مش حاسس بيه ;)

Mohaly said...

الجزء الأول حقيقى ...
أما الجزء التانى .. لا تعليف

NAMES said...

You are not alone. many people have gone through what you are and feel like you and are still going through it...Our life from the outside seems perfect and sometime we give impression that we are secure and everything is OK, but the fact is that we are HUMANS and life is a struggle and when we think about it we ask... what is it all for? Is anyone truly satisfied?
even not all what are outside ourselves can make us happy: not relationships, not family, not friends, not people, not success, not money. we wanna liberate ourselves from our own self-built prison walls...ezay mesh 3arfa :(

NAMES said...

Sorry forgot to say welcome back & Happy new year :)

ISA 2013 will be better than 2012 in everything.

Mohaly said...

Happy New Year to you too :)

amina said...

wowwwww
very deep feelings and great expression of them
ya mohaly enta mesh wa7ed, enta kaza wa7ed fe ba3d

Anonymous said...

بما ان الجزء الاول حقيقى فاتمنى انك تلاقى حب عمرك ... بس على فكره هو قريب منك قوووووووووووووووى ...وبدل مانقول لا تعليق ياريت بقى تبدا تدور عليه...

L.G. said...

عربي
عربي
أخيرا عربي
ومن الحجر ما يتفجر منه الأنهار
ومنهامن يتشقق قيخرج منه الماء
ومنها من يهبط من خشيه الله
فقط أنت انسان
ولكن سيسرقك الزمان وأنت تتساءل ادخل في تجارب الحياة بدل من التفكير فيها
سعدت بالعودة للمدونة بعد سنين لأجد لك كلمات بالعربية
سلمت كلماتك باللغة العربية
تحياتي وسنة سعيدة
سماح

Mohaly said...

Welcome back Samah ..

Who told you that I didnt get into life and its experiences... The experiences I had in the last 2 year on the public and personal levels = 10 years.. and that what has driven me to write this post coz the more I experience life, the more I get confused about it.

Maryam said...

the more we expereince life, the more we get confused about it. that is very true, unless you have the compass to guide you throught it. it is all meant to be for the reason to take you to where you are destined to be. you will find the shore, one day. only you have to go through some "experiences" tp prepare you to what you will get to. and when you are there, pieces of the puzzle (you once wondered about) will all fall into place and form the big picture.
be patient and embrace every expereince with hope, even if it is/was painful one.

as for the part of
أشعر بإنى بارداَ كالأوثان
don't worry, you are not. :-)

and for the part
م أصبحت حجرا صوان؟
it is only you who can answer this question and see where you are on the scale.
however, i don't think you are one.
rocks don't write :-)

welcome back :-)

Mohaly said...

missed ur comments ya maryam :)

rocks dont write .. lol :)

Maryam said...

well, you weren't available, Sir! :-)
I thought of not to write,knowing you don't ahve the time to answer. didnt want to cause any hassle.

isn't true that rocks don't write? writers have a very special nature that noway compares with rocks' nature :-)
and those who feel the urge to write and share their feelings and thoughts, even with just "paper" surely don't belong to the "rocked persons".
so don't worry, you are not.and please take care that you don't slip there.

And the virtual smiles look very pleasant. i am glad there are two of them.

Mohaly said...

Maryam:

It was more an "eat, play and love" journey beside work, so I washed out a lot of rust ...

This poem is more of a outloud shout for not letting myself slipping into the rock state ... I realized that I am still in control of my soul, and my heart is still beating, and I am still alive.

By the way, you cant imagine how much you had a big role in helping me in down times ... I am so grateful :)

Maryam said...

I am happy to hear that you had good time. You deffinetly needed it. Espdcially the part of play.you take things too seriously and i can see it goes far too deep into your soul. Would love to hear the defails of the trip in a post. Why dont you write a kind of "adab elre7lat". I love this kind of writings.
Dont worry, you will not turn into rock as long as u care about those around u.i could never imagine you this way.at your lonliest moments, you wont.just dont stop writing.

I am hapy i could help. Me too am grateful to my only friend for his help and promised him to do the same. Imagine hhaving omly one person in this whole life? Scary sa7?

Anonymous said...

eat, play and love this means that you finally found it congratulation enjoy ba2a ya Mohaly

Anonymous said...

اكل و لعب و حب عيش ايامك عيش لياليك خلى شبابك يفرح بيك عيش باروح والقلب ضحك و لعب و اكل و حب عيش :)

Mohaly said...

yeah ya Maryam scary indeed ...

by the way when I said "Love" I didnt mean I found someone, but I finally started to fall in love with myself, which I guess the thershold of finding the true love.

Maryam said...

I know what you meant. you put it like "eat, pray, love" and i didnt take it word-for-word. i still find the play part the most important and am happy you had a nice time.

it is very important to fall and stay in live of yourself, accept yourself and forgive yourself too. what i have learned is you can't really live peacefully until you have embraced yourself for who you are.

how is the time after vacation going on? it is damn cold to go to work these days :-(

Mohaly said...

Maryam:

You know I was gonna write this note about love in the previous comment but I told myself that Maryam undterstands me well and will get it.. however, u can see that others didnt get, so it was a dual message.

and yes I agree

For work, one of the things I always do (refer to my posts about vacations and breaks) I dont go (physically) to work right after I am back from long trip (whether vacation or business).. I need a buffer zone, so I kept yesterday and today for emails, updates, documents, phone calls,..etc. and physically starting tomorrow where hopefully the weather will start getting better.

But seriously such cold weather in cairo is un-bearable ... I was just in UK and I was much more coping as everything there is designed to make u feel warm.. here it is the opposite, so it doubles the feeling of coldness.

Anonymous said...

ENo our sincere virtual friend , OTHERS GOT very well what you wrote :)

Mohaly said...

LOL :)

Anonymous said...

You know i envy you , it's very cold and your heart is very warm. I want to borrow it just one day ;)
OTHERS

Mohaly said...

My heart is not for sale, rent, lease, or even lending :)

at last you signed your comments: Others :)!

Maryam said...

it does good to take a "transition period" before stating right away. Sometimes i take this luxury, but often it donest work and the Sunday after vacation is the most horrible of my days. :-)

Ya, in Europe/US/Canada everything is designed to keep you warm in winter, although the heaters don't work during summer days, even if weather is cold!. and lately they face the problem of needing A/C in summer when it gets unbearable hot for them.

think about starting "Adab el rahalt" series. It is fun to write and read about.

the compliment is such a nice one. thank you :-)